The Boy who calls me Sugar - Part 1

He enters my room, looks at my gloomy face & being the best friend he is, says.. Sugar, Wanna go for a walk ??
 I nod and go out with him. 
We walk and walk , without uttering a single word. 
Reaching Marine Drive, we both sit down at our usual place.. Everything still unsaid.

Sitting next to him, gazing at the sea.. Such a known feeling.. Nothing around me, just us! I can make out the silence talking. I realize that he is looking at me with a question in his eyes and mind..Typical him ! Just staring.. I still don't say anything.. I am thinking, Stop Staring , just like old times..

 And then interrupting the silent conversation, I tell him.. "Aditya proposed me !"

 He is sill looking at me, blankly..

 I continue "He says we both will be great together and all that"

 "So?" comes the question..

"So?" I revert.

 "What did you say?"

 "Nothing, what else do I say ?

" "So you said a yes ?"

 "No", I answer blankly.

 "You said a no!" I can smell the happiness in his voice.

 Looking him in the eye, first time in the entire evening, I say, "Yea, I said a No." 

"Why ?"

 "What do you mean by why ?"

 "Why did you say a no ?" "Cause I don't wanna be with him.

"I say ; as a matter of fact. Why ?

 "Cant you just stop asking questions?" 

"No, I cant. Why ?"

 "What why ?"

 "Why do you not wanna be with him?"

 "Because.. " 

I look below at the sea.Trying to control all the emotions stuck in the form an idiotic tear ready to roll down my eye..I close my eyes, "Nothing !"

 Ignoring my reply, he asks.." Because ?" 

Without thinking, I say " because I want to be with someone else..Okay ? Happy ? "

 "Who ?"

 "Can we stop talking about this ?"

 "Am asking you something !" 

"And I am going.." I get up to make a move. 

"Sugar, Who ?"

 I stop and look at him with all the love that has been with me for years.. "I want to be with, The Boy who calls me Sugar"..

Love. Be Loved !

Its weird that people push you to your limits and expect you to break all the walls and be there for them..Without any expectation…

For People you LOVE, you do just that..

Be there for them, Get back with them every time..Give more and more of love to them, with only hope of having some of it back.. Some day..

But then one day, You have had Enough !

And when you are tired , coz one fine day you realise that you cant do it anymore..

One day you realise that maybe its time to see if they can be patient enough to break the wall..

One day you realise you need to know if the people who mean the world to you.. Do you even mean anything at all to them ??

Most of the times.. You’ll be disappointed..Most of the times you’ll be alone..

Most of the times, you are gonna sit in the night and with tears in your eyes, ask yourself.. Am I that Non-Important ? Was none of it Good Enough ? Wasn't it worth it ?

And most of the times – You are gonna sleep with a heavy heart…

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If you read this and thought about someone. Please call them. NOW.Maybe they are too angry to answer.Call up again. Maybe they are very rude today, But remember they have been patient all this while, Lets give them the Luxury of having the attention..

Call up and say that “You mean a lot” ..

Call up and say “My Life is Incomplete without U”..

Call up and say’I love U’ !

Failure !

Failure.
It gets to you.
You blame God about being unfair and your luck being rotten..
You get jealous about other people’s success..
You become cranky.. In short, Failure brings out the worst in you..
But what is it about failures that affects, upsets you so
much. Maybe it is the fear of letting down & disappointing people you love. Maybe it is just the hesitance in starting over
things again. Maybe it is nothing.

Maybe it is just us.

Maybe it is just a phase that shall pass, but meanwhile also teach you the value of Success..
Maybe geting success easily wouldnt have the same charm that success upon failure has.
Maybe it helps you distinguish people from the ones who care to who dont.
Maybe it helps you push the worst in you to bring out your better side.
Maybe it just is God’s way of restoring faith in Him & Yourself.